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I wrote this on August 15 in a journal app I downloaded. I didn't realize it at the time, but after I went back and read it, I thought it needed to be shared. :)

Today is...dealing with a fussy baby. Dealing with not knowing if you are doing an adequate job of feeding your child. Cleaning massive amounts of spit-up out of a car seat when you are running late for a doctor's appointment. Looking at your child and wondering how you could love anyone more. Feeling inadequate and scared because you have such a weight of responsibility to feed, clothe, nurture and rear this child. Forgetting that you are a child of God and therefore, are never inadequate. Forgetting that you just have to give it to God and He'll take care of it. Forgetting that you aren't doing this alone. Forgetting that God gave you this child...He obviously knows you would be the perfect mother for him. Forgetting that you have an amazing husband who is willing and wanting to help in any way possible. Realizing that your hormones are way out of wrack and you can't stop crying...even though you want to. Realizing that you must ask for help when you need it. Realizing that you kind of wish you lived closer to family, even though you love your current city. Realizing that you will be challenged with parenthood for the rest of your life...it isn't going to get easier, just different challenges to face. Realizing that you could never do it alone. Realizing that some people do it on their own. Realizing how blessed you truly are. Praising God for your sweet, sweet baby...who is slightly fussy and did puke in the car today. Praising God for your dedicated, loving, sensitive husband. Praising God that you don't have to do ever do ANYTHING on your own, because He's always there. Praying for those who do it without the reassurance of salvation. Praying for those who do not rely on God's grace. Praying for those who have denied the peace that being a child of God offers. Praying that you will be an example of God's grace, not only to your son, but your husband, friends, co-workers, and even strangers. Praying that everything you do will be done for the glory of God. Praying you won't get in God's way. Praying and submitting your worries to Him.

...Knowing that tomorrow will be better. :)

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